Day One

First day that mum is gone and my head feels like its about to EXPLODE. Swept half, no more then half the house and left the rest to Jessa. All she had to do was clean the table and swept the kitchen and half the hallway. All she does tho is just lay in bed eating fucking yogurt and fating and complaining about how the spoon is so heavy, then I told her again, and she just complaints and does nothing why doesn't she just fucking understand oh my gosh then she acts like she doesn't have the intelligence to clean the fucking table so i have to fucking explain it to her then she goes and messes with Danny, oh my gosh. She got back from school like 30 minutes ago and i already want to kill her. Anyway today something happened that has not happened in a long time. My tummy growled, that hasn't happened sense like... I was in school. o.0 That is it. I really don't know how I´m going to deal with this but I´m going to have to.

Shadow

you have to keep the tears in

no matter what

never let ´em out

not a single one

no matter if your mother die

no matter if your uncle

always keep the tears in

always keep it a secret

no matter if your grandma

or your grandpa die

never show your sorrow

let alone your tear

no matter if you die and look down upon yourself

you have to remember never ever to cry

these are the words i am suppose to like by, my grandma´s brother died and i didn't cry. until i was alone a tear dropped from my eye, but it wasn't for him, it was for me...and now my puppy died, some might say its stupid, but that was like my baby, and i cried the whole night through, and i cried in the morning and i cried as i typed, for my little baby Shadow that will never come back

o.0

my puppy, died like a couple of minutes ago. Am I sad? Yes, yes I am Shadow was my baby...so yes I am crying....