How can someone start liking a person that is so different from what they normally go after? If you think of everything you dislike in people and you meet a person that IS that EVERY LIKE THING YOU HATE, do you start having feelings for them? I mean how is that even possible. And how do you not realise that they are everything that you dislike until someone points it out, and when they tell you your heart is to far gone, but you decide make it into a game that way your heart is detached and you don't get hurt. So you act like you don't care and pretend it doesn't bother you. So when you're with him you´ll smile but feel as if you re dieing on the inside. Then he find out you think its a game and he says its cool cuz it is a game and he doesn't really care but what if he has a hurt expression on this face? what if he keeps giving you a chance to take back what you said he keeps sending you signals, so you feel like you have to do something to take bake what you said but you're not saying it. So you cut his initials on your arm and show it to him, and the look on this face, bliss. So he hugs you tight and kisses you. The next day you ask him if he wants to brake up, why? Why would you do that? That's what he´s thinking. He tells you no, yet the next day you ask again, He looks hurt but till says no. so you keep asking and he´s angry and hurt. He doesn't understand that's it´s for him that you're doing this, if he really knew what you were like, the real you, the sick and twisted you, would he still be with you. So you ask him why he want to stay with you and he wrights it on your hand- ILY. Your heart skips a beat but there is no expression on your face. you go hang with him and his friends they are already talking about marriage between the two of you, You kind of like the idea you wouldn't mind because every second you spend with him you like him more and more. So why,WHY would you say there was no was you would ever marry him? Because it would ruin everything if he saw you for what you really were he would hate you, so that night you play the game detach your heart. You notice hes doing the same, he´s detaching his heart also, so you will not hurt him again, and that hurts you but this is not the time to think about it because right now you're playing the game. That all you need to treat this as just a game if you do your heart won't get hurt....but what is worse to live with half a heart and lonely or to have hope that maybe he will help heal your hear and be with him.....do you really want to keep playing this game with him, its up to you just remember not to sleep with him cuz if the way things are continue he´ll become more and more detached and you´ll become more and more attached, and if you sleep with him....if you do....you´ll fall in love, and to him it will only be...just another sex game.
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