DOFL(dying of fucking laughter)

Why does it hurt so much like it fells like my hear is on fire and i hate it i mean its not heartburn OK anyway like just thinking that he might be with her hurt but i guess i have to let it go i gave good advice to my friend that is going through something similar but the problem is that i cant follow my own fucking advise and like my Friend i wish that i could go back and change all that happened. NO! even better i wish i never would have met him that way i wouldn't of gotten hurt he thinks that its stupid that i´m scared of love.WELL MY FUCKING BAD FOR BEING STUPID he knows just about all my secrets he should understand why i fell like this but he doesn't he just bitches at me about it you don't think that maybe i wanna change that maybe i want to fell good about loving someone. but what ever go ahead and go to her i only wish i could do that go to some one and fell save with them but i guess it'll never be you and i guess it will never happen.......