alone

I've never felt more alone and misunderstood then at this moment. All this shit with my ex and my friends daughter running away brings back memories. And make me feel bad, and make me think it would be better if i were gone, and even the shit with my mum i mean how the fuck are you going to give me more responsibilities then i can handle and force me to grow up so i end up not having a fucking childhood, and then tell me that i take things to seriously, and i need to act my own age so i act like a kid and you tell me to stop acting so childish. Not only that but you try to push me out of the nest before I´m ready so i try to keep to myself and out of every ones way because all i am is a bother and finally when i´m ready to leave the nest, you chain me down so i won't leave. I don't understand you and you´ll never understand me maybe i´m too fucked up maybe you don't care. But this is worse then ever before because right now i have no one, and I've never felt so alone in my entire life. I have never wanted to die so much just walk into the darkness and never look back to close my eyes and sleep and never wake up.....and trust me i would if it were not for a few people, the people that keep me sane my best friend and my little brother and sister the only ones that really show me love and let me know I'm not alone....